✘✘I HATE MYSELF✘✘

I hate myself!!!!!!
i wish to disappear!!!!!


why many bad thing wan happen on me??
why???
before is my gor like tat...
now my turn...
arhhhhgggg!!!!
i hate!!!!


i this few day thing so many...
really many....
i think something tat about the world...
what kind of this world??
such a joke??
a game??
what!!!??


i think it properly ady....
i do what my feel...
follow my feel...
feel it correct jiu do....
feel it wan do jiu do!!!
ok??
i ady not wish to alive anymore....


i wan true word...
i wan ppl don't lie me anymore!!
but ppl i can't control....
i really so hate ppl lie me T_T....
can somebody really treat me??
why my friend around me some like got thing dun tell me??
even i believe d ppl...
i really hate this feel....
make me no meaning for this world...


if u give ppl lie u will happy meh??
if u live without true...
got meaning meh??
think it!!
dun do this to me....
i hate lie....✘✘


i hope lie no happen to me anymore...
stop it ok??


now...
i just live with myself...
do what i wan...
i have a dream...
my dream is can get a good live...
can together with my lover...
can do "nu qiang ren"...
can get a true friend...
can get better relationship with my family 1 day by 1 day...
can get a good result...
at least all pass...
really really hope so...


hope somebody really help me...
now..
i just can pray...
i pray god help me...
i beg god help me and ch...
i beg god got 1 day let me and he do like as friend...
i hate us now...
friend also not...
not i wan....
just he....


why break must no friend do ma??
if his decision is dunwan keep contact with me...
i nth can do...


now...
i can do d just secret love he...
secret wait he...
secret protect he...
i wish i can more understand he....
but...
who help me??


i can't wish it so much...
i do what i can do...
i try my best to show my love...
hope it work...


k la...
wan do  homework and have my dinner...
have a delicious dinner a...
bye><