no...

人生得一知己死而无憾~
就是这个意思吧？
我对朋友这个的重视很大~
我无法去很信任它因为我害怕受伤...


我谁都不敢去相信了~
因为我觉得这世界实在太恐怖了...
有人真的会真心的去跟你做朋友吗？
答案是有~
只不过儒指可数...
难啊！
我既然感觉到了一件可怕的事...
我的朋友既然只会有目的才接近我...
有事才跟我好~
没事当我透明~
没事当做不认识我！
what the???


我不敢相信我所感觉到的...
太恐怖了吧？
这世界就是要这样吗？
我受够了！


现在...
我唯一可以信任的朋友就是许嘉仪...
一个曾经差点失去的朋友~
怎么说呢？
就是误会...
让我曾经也不敢再信任她~
如今和好如初...
我希望我不会再被伤害！
我希望她是真心的~
真的想做我唯一的好朋友...
唯一的知己...


我是一个重情重义的人...
很脆弱~
我真的很希望当我烦恼的时候有人了解我~
在我身旁给我安慰...
陪我...让我诉苦...
让我尽情的哭...
可是....
我还没遇过这样的朋友...
也许还没出现吧~><...


我不希望自己再信错人...
所以...
Tracy Koh！
不要让我失望...
你是我最好最好的好朋友好知己！
我是那么地珍惜你...
也许只是你不知道？><...


现在的我只想当个女强人...
我学会了坚强...
不需要再靠别人生活！
我要告诉全世界！
我！刘倍君不是你们心目中的胆小鬼！
虽然我很怕虫...可是那不是我想的啊~
我也想克服它！
可是每个人总有自己最害怕的东西吧？
不要再用那种”你很无聊”的眼神对我！
我会受不了！


我现在好像尽情的哭！
我好想告诉自己不要再流眼泪！
可是我做不到！
我还是很脆弱~
很容易就受到伤害~
谁可以了解我这种心情？
谁能够真心地对我？
我不知道...


此刻...
我哭得像泉水一样...
在别人眼中我是一个爱笑的女孩...
是一个三八的女孩...
是一个不容易受伤的人...
可是...
又有谁真正的了解真正的我？
答案是没有！
连我家人也不了解我~
也在伤害我...
我到底还可以撑多久？
我不知道~
好想有人知道我的苦~
分担我的一点苦...


算了吧~
该遇到的总会遇到~

不是每一次努力都有收获
但是每一次收获都必须努力
这是一个不公平的不可逆转的命题...
也许就是这样吧~


我很坚强的！

我可以输，
但我决不放弃！
我不要被别人看死！
我一个人可以的！
我不会再傻傻的死缠烂打！
你们不理我也没关系！
我一个人还是可以很好的！
不必操心！


学业上我一直都在努力~
虽然成绩算不上最好！
可是我满意了~
我尽我的能力考出来的！
我会努力！
将来赚多多钱养家！


有一位朋友...
她很骄傲！
那就是她的性格！
谁也改不了~
我好想告诉她...
你的成绩是好！
但是请你别看死别人！
别贬低别人！
我们人类是有自尊心的！
拜托你收起你的骄傲！


果然人不是十全十美的！
成绩好心不好~
什么道理？
我不跟那些人计较~
我没有想跟她们比过...
想怎样就怎样！
我无所谓！


到现在我才知道我很天真！
不该相信她们的！
算了~
现在知道就好...
我无所谓了！


go ahead!

are this world full of lies?

hmmm...
i realize that this world are full of lies...
aren't like this?


but i'm not before that girl...
i'm already 17 years old...
it's the process of growing...
i'm a mature girl...
i will think of it...maybe...


i felt some ppl around me are so fake...pretended...
aw~~~
it's fine...
i don't care what are ppl doing!
what crappy stuff they do just go ahead...
just leave it..
they good to me i good to they too...
if u just want to pretended infront of me...sorry!
no way!
i will just treat u as normal...
but i will not believe u anymore~
it's fake thing...don't tell me!


that's all ><
once again i say that...
i hate lies!hate liar!
but if it is white lies i still can forgive...
but if a not forgiven lies...
don't come to me!


this world are no niceness...
included me...
if u be nice to people...u also be a victim to people...(i see a book write this)
right?


this are some meaningful sentence i saw at facebook:


"不是每一次努力都有收获
但是每一次收获都必须努力
这是一个不公平的不可逆转的命题"


"如果你不能应付我最差的一面
那么你也不值得拥有我最好的一面"


"永远不要向任何人解释你自己
因为喜欢你的人不需要
而不喜欢你的人不会相信"


"有时候当我说“我很好”的时候
其实我希望有个人能看穿我的眼睛
紧紧抱着我说：“我知道你并不好” "


meaningful fight?:]

:D

hahaha~

hi my secret blog x]...

long time din't come and write ady...:D

erm...

i no write u must happy!

because that means i'm in good mood ^^

no upset or what xD

congratzz to me la!

hahahaha~

erm...

today come write just for say hello x]

recently very very busy...

homework like a mountain...

but now is finish ady x)

no worry^^

erm...

now just upset of friend only gua...

hahaha...

cause sometime will feel my bestfriend not so close to me><

i will very upset...

cause u know...

i'm very care about my friend><

sometime will feel my distance and my dear(tracy) far apart><...

don't know why also...

but today feel better xD

cause she is my best friend...

so i don't ever want to feel our distance far><...

so i hope she can take me as her best best friend also la :D

ok la!

nth to say jor...xD

good nite!

enough!

enough enough enough!!!
stupid!!!
i endure enough!!!
who u think u are??
plsss la...
don't live at ur dream and unrealistic world la ok??
my god!!
sometime i think why i'm so stupid to give u once and once chance!!
why i wan to forgive u??
no way!!!
now i won't forgive anything thing of u!!
go away!!


Elaine How!
why i can give u so many chance??
why i wan forgive u??
u know??
because i really treat u from true heart!!!
cause i thought u will change!!!
but i'm wrong!!
i'm so wrong!!!!
i see wrong u ady!!!
no chance ady...i give up on u!!
don't ask me to forgive u anymore.....


don't she think she is so overly??
i endure for what???
why i so stupid??
i endure at last i get what??
just a bad treat from her!!
she still say why everytime also is her fault...
halo!!!plsss!!!
if not me a???
find new friend..kai jie...kai mui...what what what also is u!!!
what i can say??
i wrong a???i din't find any new d ppl to replace u!!
but u did it!!!!
like that is i wrong a???
i don't know what kind of truth in u!!!!


i really so so so so super stupid!!!
u wan say u are right then go ahead!!!
u right!!!ya!!!u right!!!i wrong!!
ok???
happy???
go eat shit la!!!!!!
how i can endure for 1year-2 year??
why i so powerful to endure ppl???
haixxxxx...
maybe that my habits lo!!!!
so STUPID!!!!


i saw ur blog yesterday..
what u saw me but i so cool to look u==
plsss la...i'm looking at ur backside!!
i'm looking at zhi jie!!!
not u!!!
don't so narcissism!!
and before that day i ady give up on u!!
and i won't look at u de lo!!
so shit...
why i so shit!!!
i wan go bang wall!!!
why i wan treat friend so good...
why i wan give she a chance??
no no no no no...
don't ask me to give ady...
and i think u won't do it also ady...
hahahaa....
and just don't do it!!!
cause useless..........................


my friend and gor are right!
u are bad!
why i always give u chance and think u are so good i also don't know..
maybe u so geng lo...
pandai to lie ppl!!
heng heng heng....
enough for u!!
what the hell u want to do also not my business!!!
go ahead la.....!!!
good bye!!!

shit...

bull shit brother!!!
better don't talk with me!!!!

=D...

hehehe x)
long time din't update my secret blog><...
because i'm too busy!
ooppssss....
sorry^.~


now is exam week...
next week also exam week...
and next next week still got chinese exam><...
so many exam de aaaa....><...
haha...
nvm la..just hope i can get a good result~!
hope so :)


recently got what unhappy??
erm....
maybe no...
cause i din't think too much><..
now unhappy also because of friend lar....
what what lar...


but i unhappy also alone lar..
don't know why now i rarely find ppl to chat ady...
maybe because i be independent??
or maybe i just lazy to chat with ppl through hp ba><...
i will chat with my cousin when she's come=D
she's my best listener and best cousin^^
thx for being a part of my life :)


erm....
what to do now??
i also don't know...
revision ba><..
hehe...
tomorrow exam BI...
hope it's not too hard!
add Oil!!!

不开心~ :(

今天真的很不开心...
因为某某事 :(...


回到家就打给妈妈~
又为了钱吵了><...
哎~~~
为什么那么烦啊！
为什么爸爸要没钱 :'(...
我也很辛苦好吗？
我也不想看到这样！


我眼镜加深了:(
一直用妈妈的钱我知道很辛苦她~
他已经付出很多了><...
我都知道！
可是能怎样 :'(
我不是故意的....
我也想爸爸出钱啊~
如果他不肯我有什么办法？


咳~~~
我又哭了~
我很没用！
大家都认定我很没用的啦！
我真的很讨厌~


我喜欢笑是因为我要大家开心~
你们到底懂不懂？
不是我时常笑就代表我做不到是 :'(...
请了解我好吗？
不要一口就认定我不行！


我什么都以个人扛~
我已经很压力~
很辛苦了~
为什么还要这样来看死我呢？
对不起~~:(